Michael Jeffery Hauenstein, 27
This was one of the toughest mornings of our lives! As many of you know Mike was readmitted to The Christ Hospital on Sunday after having rectal bleeding and with my fear of him loosing too much blood I told him he had two opions. 1)Ride to the hospital in the car or 2)An Ambulance would come and pick him up and he wouldn't have to wait in the ER waiting room. Needless to say with a good and solid brain in his head his chose choice 2! At the Er we found out that Mike's platelets were6 were they are supposed to be between 150-350. Mike was admitted adn given platelets and RBC. Mike was seen by oncologist all week long. Starting he was told that radiation was out of the question and he wasn't eligable for a bone marrow transplant, then he was told he was a canidate for Hopice. This news absolutly devestated us! Mike was also starting to feel not too much like himself. By Tuesday Mike was having problems urinated and it was hurting and he was bleeding a good amount from his urethra. Mike was however able to have several bowel movements. I was happy about that though! Silly I know to be happy about poop. By Wed. Mike was unableto walk and his speech was very slurred and pressured. Mike became very aggitated and was having more problems urinating. By Thursday Mike was now a DNR and was on high Doses of pain medicine. Mike by this time had not been eating since Tuesday and all his PO meds were discontinued, and Mike was in hospice. We were told Mike had minimal time left. With several choices and much family support I thing I made all the right choices and I think right now I'm okay with that.

Friday morning October 20, 2006 at 3:05a.m. Mike went home to be with our LORD! Living the life he's lived and fought so hard to stand up for Mike went to heaven not loosing his battle with cancer but WINNING THAT FIGHT!!!!! Like Mike said along time ago he didn't wast to die loosing his battle but winning and in our eyes he did just that!!! Mike is my hero and as I'm sure he's a hero to so many individuals out there who read this journal! Thank you all for your support, prayers, and thoughts! Either myself or Debbie, maybe even Topm or Sara will cintinue to post what's going on in our lives! I will also be posting current pictures of Mike, Tyler, myself, and our family with the help of James who helped Mike make this website possible!

Thanks again!
Ann Hauenstein!

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	(Anonymous) 2006-10-20 10:38 am UTC (link)
	My thoughts and prayers are with the entire Hauenstein family. Mike is home now and pain free. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Love (Anonymous) 2006-10-20 02:34 pm UTC (link)
	I am so very sorry for your loss. Jorni and I will continue our prayers for God's blessings and mercies on the entire Hauenstein family. May some of Mike's awesome strentgh be with you now as well. Love... Bekka (Reply to this) (Parent)

(Anonymous) 2006-10-20 11:20 am UTC (link)

Dear Ann, I am sorry to hear this news.I will be keeping you, Tyler and the rest of Mike's family in my prayers. Thanks to God for the life of Mike Hauenstein. He touched so many people with his website as we all journeyed with him in his battle. His honesty and frankness about all that was going on Im sure was or will be helpful to many of us as cancer is on the rise.He was an inspiration as he battled with undying strength, courage and persistence! He will be missed but I am thankful as I know He won the ultimate battle and is enjoying a wonderful peace,and happiness in his new eternal life. Much love, Nancy Roberts (Reply to this)

(Anonymous) 2006-10-20 12:22 pm UTC (link)

I just want to say how very sorry I am for your loss. I know you don't know me, but I carpooled to P&G with your Aunt Diane for many years. I have been praying for Mike and his family for a very long time. I will continue to pray for you all, as you go through this very difficult time. If there is any peace in the fact that Mike is finally out of pain and feeling better than he ever has in his life, then hold on to that. You have been such a wonderful wife, caregiver and mother and you WILL get through this, no matter how dim things may seem right now. I lost my Mom in a very tragic way just over 2 years ago, and I have to say that it is true . . . time DOES heal. You never forget, but the pain does lessen as time goes by. I have to say the 2nd year was much easier than the first. You will be the strength for Tyler and he will look to you to help him cope with his loss. Don't be afraid to ask for help for yourself. I, myself went to counseling to help me cope with my Mom's death and it really helped tremendously. Take care of yourself and know that you have so many people praying for you guys that you don't even know, or have not even met before. All the best, Cindy O'Donnell (Reply to this)

	(Anonymous) 2006-10-20 12:29 pm UTC (link)
	I am terribly sorry to hear this. You all are in our thoughts and prayers and we have been thinking of you guys often. Ann, if there is anything that we can do please get ahold of us. Vanessa and Mike Sowers (Reply to this)

	Our prayers are with you! (Anonymous) 2006-10-20 12:56 pm UTC (link)
	Ann: I sit here with tears in my eyes. It seems like just yesterday, we were scrambling to make the Florida trip happen, and happily e-mailing about our husbands, our "Mike's." Although Mike and I never got to meet Mike in person, I feel like I've known him forever! We will continue to pray for you and the family! Love, Susan, and Mike Jonas (Reply to this)

Mike (Anonymous) 2006-10-20 01:12 pm UTC (link)

We are truly saddened by todays news and know Mike outlasted all of our expectations. What a loss this for us here today, but it is comforting to know that he is in a better place and his pain and suffering is over. He is such an inspiration to us all. We all should have pride and joy in having been blessed with knowing and loving such a wonderful, caring son, father, husband, , brother, friend. Mike will never leave our hearts, prayers and memories, and one day we will all be joined together to better understand our purpose here and why someone so beautiful is taken from us. Tom and family, you know if there is anything at all we can do, just call. May God give us strength to get through this. Love, Vance and Sandy (Reply to this)

	What a fight indeed! (Anonymous) 2006-10-20 01:14 pm UTC (link)
	Wow, what sorrowing news. I've never known anyone that fought the fight with more intensity and love for his family than Mike. We share in your tears and memories. Please let us know if there is anything at all we can do to help at this time. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Re: What a fight indeed! (Anonymous) 2006-10-20 01:16 pm UTC (link)
	Forgot to identify - this is Chuck Wiggins... (Reply to this) (Parent)

(Anonymous) 2006-10-20 02:02 pm UTC (link)

Dear Ann & family, I am so sorry for your loss. Mike was such an inspiration to us all! Praying for him kept me focused. I am so glad that he is in the place now where there is no such things as cancer, pain and death. And I rejoice that someday you, he, Tyler and the rest of your family will be enjoying a wonderful family reunion. But I mourn his passing. God bless and keep you! Remember there are countless numbers praying and interceding for you as you go through these difficult and transitional times. Much love and grace your way! net from erie, pa (Reply to this)

(Anonymous) 2006-10-20 02:11 pm UTC (link)

My heart and prayers go out to Mike's family. I am a cancer survivor with a 2 1/2 year old daughter, and I can't imagine what he must have gone through. I was lucky and won my battle-5 year survivor. But he also won his battle. I had tears in my eyes when I read the jorunal entry this morning. I have been reading his journal for the past year and he is truly an inspiration to me. God bless Mike and his family-he is truley in a better place now looking down on us. (Reply to this)

	(Anonymous) 2006-10-20 02:19 pm UTC (link)
	Ann my heart goes out to you and Tyler, may God be with you. You have the world's greatest Angel looking over you now. God Bless you. Kim & Branden (Reply to this)

	(Anonymous) 2006-10-20 03:13 pm UTC (link)
	Ann- I am so sorry for you loss. If there is anything that you need please ask. I know that this is a hard time for you and you are in my prayers. Essex called Ben at like 4 this morning and he told us and Ben and I were in shock. Pleae let us know if there is anything we can do. Casey Mays & Ben Ellis (Reply to this)

(Anonymous) 2006-10-20 03:48 pm UTC (link)

Dear Tom, Debbie, Ann, Tyler & Sara : Martine, Gini and I would like to send you our deepest thoughts and sympathy for the loss of your son, husband, father, brother Mike whom we were happy to see have a good time swimming with Tyler and all of us at Chuck and Debbie's this past August. We also send our thoughts and sympathy to the entire family. Please let us know if we can assist you in any other way. Martine, Yvan, & Gini Verbesselt (Reply to this)

My Thoughts are With You (Anonymous) 2006-10-20 04:26 pm UTC (link)

Hello Anna, You've never spoken to me, nor have you ever met me, but I am a good friend of Amanda Gibb's, and Amber. I just received the email from Amanda telling me this news, and my heart dropped. I know Mike is in a better place now, and no longer in pain... which is wonderful. I only hope that you hold fast to your strength and your faith, and know that even perfect strangers are supporting you through love and prayer. Mike is an inspiration to many... as are you. I'm sorry for your loss! My prayers are with you, Tyler, and your family. With Love, Melissa DiMarco (Reply to this)

	Hauenstein Family (Anonymous) 2006-10-20 04:30 pm UTC (link)
	Our hearts goes out to you Ann, Mike and Tyler. This has taken an extremely hard hit on us all but we know now he is no longer in pain and in a better place. Hugs to you Ann for being so strong through all of this and if you need anything please don't hesitate to call. Love, The Gibbs' Family (Reply to this)

(Anonymous) 2006-10-20 04:43 pm UTC (link)

I graduated high school with Mike and have been following his journal for the last few months. Never, until now, did I post to let him know I was praying for him and the family. Ann, we were in Marching band together, I was in the color guard. Not sure if you remember me or even if Mike would have remembered me, but please know you are in my prayers. What a blessing it is to know that Mike is now dancing with the angels in Heaven! Continue to be strong and know that HE is watching over you and Tyler. -- Kim (Wasson) Saxon (Reply to this)

(Anonymous) 2006-10-20 05:05 pm UTC (link)

To the Hauenstein family, I am so deeply sorry and sadened by your loss. It is so hard to loose a ''loved one''. I did a year ago. I feel fortunate to have met Mike in person. He was truly an extraordinary person, friend, husband, father and son. Mike was also fortunate to have such a loving, caring, supportive family. Please take care of yourselves.... Sincerely, Jackie Feldhaus & family (Reply to this)

(Anonymous) 2006-10-20 06:15 pm UTC (link)

I'm so sorry for your loss. I have been reading Mike's journal for a year or longer now and we had wrote back and forth several times. Mike has been a true inspiration to me and made me think over decisions I had made in my life. Mike was an amazing person and I know you will all miss him because I know I will as well. God Bless You and your family. Thank God for Mike is no longer suffering but went to heaven winning his fight. (Reply to this)

	(Anonymous) 2006-10-20 06:43 pm UTC (link)
	I am soo sorry for your loss..he was an amazing person with such a passion for life. (Reply to this)

candice (Family his cousin) (Anonymous) 2006-10-20 07:17 pm UTC (link)

I came home from school today and found out mike had passed away. This really hurt me it's like somebody ripping out all your feelings and your so shocked you don't know what to say. My first intention was the look on my mom's face i knew something went wrong.. then she said it and i jus looked at her like mom no stop he's not dead... its not possible why him?? Why! I just can't understand why he had to be taken from us so soon. I ran up stairs and thought about all the memories with the family christmas with grandma audrey ..and a slient tear tore down my cheek and it wasnt long before my mascara was running down my face, hes with grandma audrey in a safe place now. I just cant believe hes already gone. God only takes the best of us. Never take life for granted because its not your everyday rollar coaster ride. I miss my cousin yes i do a lot. I will always be praying for him. R.I.P. Mike hauenstine. We love and miss you. Here's a poem When i look up at the sky i sit and wonder why somebody like you had to die, just a memory so much agony and pain, i know your in a better place, but your family and us will miss your face, god is unwilling but he took you in his hands free to your will in his eternal land, Never under estimate things they can be swept before you know it, life isnt an statement god gave it to us to see how strong we are, he wanted to know who's weak and who's a fighter, Now all we can ask for is the resting of his soul, We got to keep our sense and not loose control, it's going to be hard without him by our side, but he was willing to fight for the ride, and he did he made his final bow and all we can do is sit and reminise now, but we will never forget you or your beautiful soul somebody who has pride in their eyes and courage when the going gets tough he is somebody who knows when NOT to quit. You are loved and missed. RIP <3333 Love your cousin Candice Marie Mize. (Reply to this)

Fill Not Your Hearts... (Anonymous) 2006-10-20 07:31 pm UTC (link)

Fill not your hearts with pain & sorrow, but remember me in every tomorrow. Remember the joy, the laughter, the smiles, I've only gone to rest a little while. Although my leaving causes pain and grief, my going has eased my hurt and given me relief. So dry your eyes and remember me, not as I am now, but as I used to be. Because, I will remember you all and look on with a smile. Understand, in your hearts, I've only gone to rest a little while. As long as I have the love of each of you, I can live my life in the hearts of all of you. (Reply to this)

	(Anonymous) 2006-10-20 07:53 pm UTC (link)
	My thoughts are with the entire Hauenstein family! Ann if you need anything do not hesitate to ask. You have a great group of friends and family that will be here for you! Stay Strong. Michelle Parsley (Reply to this)

(((((((((((Ann)))))))))))))) (Anonymous) 2006-10-20 08:20 pm UTC (link)

I wish I lived down the street. I wish that I could come to the wake and funeral and just give you the biggest, warmest hug.... I know that the next several days are going to be like a whirlwind for you. Know, know, know that I will be constantly lifting you up in prayer. There is NO doubt in my mind that you will go on to give Tyler a wonderful life---and now Mike is a prayer warrior for both of you. Please be good to yourself. Let people help you. Take time to be alone, you will need that to keep yourself sane. Of course you know all this comes from a woman that has 'been there and done that'....so please listen to me: you need to take care of you! I am honored and humbled to call you my friend even though we 'only' know eachother online. You are a remarkable young woman. Mike was so in love with you! Knowing him and having all this happen will shape you in ways you could never have imagined. Welcome to the club, my friend---the one that no one ever wanted to join. Please remember to call me at 2am when no one else wants to talk---I will be there for you. Much love, many prayers and a wish for peace... Michelle in NH (Reply to this)

(Anonymous) 2006-10-20 08:37 pm UTC (link)

I feel terrible that Mike has left us.He was the type of guy you were glad to know.HE suffered something most of us cant imagine going thru.He did it for the people he loved the most.He has shown people the strength to take on whatever comes at them.Mike will always be here because he taught people to live one day at a time and live it to the fullest.Mike worked at Ford and played soccer with me.He will be missed.Our hearts are with Mike and his family.Shane McAfee and family. (Reply to this)

	Our Deepest Sympathy (Anonymous) 2006-10-20 09:51 pm UTC (link)
	Dear Mike and Ann, Our thoughts and prayers are with you and your precious family as you walk through this time of loss. Praise God, Mike is no longer suffering and is in the arms of Jesus! And thank God that you know you will see him again one day. Sharon and Patrick Bishop (with the band Turnaround) (Reply to this)

No more Pain (Anonymous) 2006-10-20 11:23 pm UTC (link)

I know this must be hard. I can't even imagine losing my husband, who is also battling cancer. Mike was a big inspiration to my husband. He said that he had so much faith. God called him home. Ann, I hope you will find peace. Mike was a very admired man and he will be missed. I didn't know your family personally but have been following his journal for quite awhile. I know he loved his family with all of his heart. Now he is an angel looking down from heaven. i will continue to pray for you and Tyler. Tyler would be proud to know that his father was not only a hero and a fighter, but his love for the Lord was amazing. Thoughts and prayers, Elaine and Mark (ABC survivors)Maryland (Reply to this)

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